The past two days I have made it to the Y and I have had really really good workouts. Yesterday, 40 minutes on the treadmill with a respectable incline and today on the elliptical for 40. I felt really good afterwards, both physically and emotionally. I will be back tomorrow.
That said, the food thing…oy. I am having the hardest time with this. I start out strong and as the day goes on it gets harder and harder to keep crap out of my mouth! I am certainly doing better than before I resolved to get this weight under control. However, truth be told, I was completely out of control. I guess I should be glad that there is, at least, a modicum of control now. I’m such an all-or-nothing person that “pretty good” is hard for me. (I have had a fair amount of therapy regarding this. Other things too, but the all-or-nothing thing is definitely a tough spot).
I refuse to give up, but every time I pop a cracker in my mouth that isn’t part of the “prescribed” plan, I feel simultaniously soothed and defeated. One would think that I could stop and say to myself, “Self…this isn’t going to make you feel better in the long run” and run far far away. Again, lots of therapy, but we are still working on this one.
I can make all sorts of excuses, of course. I’m not going to bother, for the moment because blah blah blah. Everyone has stress. If we don’t have stress we are pretty much dead. I have to realize that this is a process and the fact that I am making positive changes is as much of a victory as doing everything perfectly. (I don’t believe this, of course, but I know that I should).
Be happy with small steps. You are moving in the right direction. And remeber, if it were easy, every one would do it!
The Fat Savage and myself will definitely be around to cheer you on!
Thank you! I love that this is an opportunity to build a network of support.
I have the hardest time with food too. Ugh